Camille James says ~

It's me Camille. I have been a loyal fan of yours for over 10 years and this is my Dear John letter to you. Yea, I know I've said it a million times that I was leaving you and 24 hours I was back, but this time I'm older. This relation-ship has sunk and I'm jumping ship. You are a hell of a drug. The kind that will make you:

• Get out of bed at 3 am in some bunny rabbit house shoes and a robe just to go to the nearest corner store.

•  Add you to my weekly budget - sometimes before the eggs and milk.

• Know that you contain rat poison, tar, a little bit of tobacco and probably swine flu and I still want you.

• Spray perfume on and think no will smell the smoke in my hair.
  

• Get up in the morning looking for you and go to sleep thinking about you.

• Go out in 40 below zero weather, with freezing rain trying to take a drag in between my nose falling off.

• Ride around for hours trying to find my brand only to settle for the 2 for 1 special.

• Read the warning label on the side for entertainment while I'm taking a puff.

• Deny our relation-ship to my husband, kids and my mother with cigarette breathe.

• Walk up to a complete stranger and ask for a lighter no matter how suspect they might look.

• Do everything from gum, patches, Zyban and even hypnosis only to want to put a whole pack in my mouth and light the end.
  

I'm about to complete my first month and this has been a transformation I will never forget. What started out as a physical detox has evolved into mental and spiritual one. I have so much energy that I am cutting my neighbor's yard and mines. I still suffer with insomnia, but that's a blog entry all by itself. I am now 13 pounds lighter and I feel fantastic. As soon as I thought I was in the clear all hell broke loose. All the things, thoughts and habits that I thought I had tucked away in the closet of my mind came out for me to deal with one more time.

It reminded me of this biblical parable:

There once was a man who lived in filth, he stunk of body order and most importantly he was accompanied by a demon. This demon taunted him and thrived in the confusion of mess and hoarding. Then one day the man got tired of dealing with this demon and decided to clean up his act... literally. So he got busy cleaning his house, his body and threw away all the trash. The demon was angered and had to leave, because he could not live in a clean environment. Once the demon left, the man began to enjoy life again and wondered why he had not done this earlier.

Some time passed and he had gotten use to his new life when suddenly a knock on the door startled him. When he answered the door it was the demon, but this time he was not alone. The demon went to and fro and found 7 more demons to attack the man.

Lesson: Making the decision to change, grow and transform means that a battle is at hand between the lower self and the higher self. The old will not go out without a fight and just when you think you have it all together... the worst has yet to come. So be prepared for the real aftermath and whatever you do... don't give up. Know that when something good is on the way, a tribulation will have to be overcome before the reward is granted. Can you weather the storm? Like all storms, the Sun will eventually shine through and victory is at hand.

A dear friend once said that the key to his success was having no expectations, therefore he never experienced disappointment. I had to ponder on that for a while and eventually I understood. It especially rang true to people I encounter, because every time I placed my own expectations on another... they always fell short.

I think that's why a lot of women are single today. Ladies you know how we come up with this extravagant list of qualities that we want in a man. He has to be rich, funny, strong, sensitive, honorable, loving, wise and no baby mama drama... and the list goes on and on.So much so that many women are actually looking for someone who does not actually exist. Well maybe in the comic books.

So I set out into the world with no expectations, which actually opened my world up to possibilities I did not know existed. This allowed the people I met and myself the freedom to just be...... How simple is that?

When two come together, they form a relation. 
A ship is designed to take you on a journey.

What is 11:11

Your point of power begins from within.

It takes a great amount of courage to accept responsibility for the situations in your life. This may seem difficult when you were not the only one involved in the situation, such as being slandered or taken advantage of by another. Long after the situation has passed, the memories of the events seem to replay themselves until it takes a life of its own. You might ask, “Why should I accept all the blame? I was the innocent one”. Yet you are the one left defenseless and in a weakened state. It is very easy to blame others or outside forces for certain dilemmas and by doing so, you are thereby powerless over the outcome. The weakened state is caused by an involuntary release of power.

 

In the act of accepting responsibility, you are thereby becoming empowered. By realizing that you created the situation, you are now able to re-create it. As long as someone else is being blamed for the problem, they are the only ones who can transform it. When you are not being the co-creator that you were designed to be, someone else will gladly do the creating for you. This will lead to you becoming part of someone else’s agenda and not that of your own. You’ll wake up one day and say, “how did I get into this situation?” This is simply because you stop creating or were not aware that you had the power to create in the first place.